When I was a little girl, my mother was beautiful.
I would climb off of the school bus at the end of the day alight with excitement at the prospects of seeing my mother and telling her about my day at school.
She would meet me at the door as she always did and pick me up into her loving arms and spin me around and around and around until my troubles disappeared and thoughts of the boy who called me names on the playground were no longer relevant because my mother loved me.
She would kiss me on the forehead and sit me on the kitchen counter as she cooked dinner for my father and I.
And she loved me.
And I loved her.
Daddy would come home with
Tumbling through the sky toward a summit uncertain
My nights are alight with a flourishing flicker
That burns in my bones with an ache I can't hide
Desire that damns me down to ashes unsigned
And it can't be right, but it can't be wrong
So I twirl on the tips of my toes like I'm told
While casting my head back to scream at the cold
Spinning faster and swifter with each star that descends
Defying the wheels of roulette that forget
That I always win out in the end.